Fear bubbled up in my gut. Like a slow-acting drug, paralysis spread over my body. Indecision followed by a gut-wrenching panic filled in the remaining spaces in my churning stomach and like that, I was frozen, like a deer in the headlights, uncertain what my next move would be.
All calmness and rational thought drain away, leaving an empty shell of a human, panic-stricken, paralyzed with indecision and fear. This is what survival feels like and I know this feeling very well. As an entrepeneur I face fear and indecision often, but sometimes it is worse than other times. When a big bill comes due, the base instinct of survival sets in as panic floods my bloodstream. How am I going to pay this? I feel helpless, pinned to the spot, unmoving.
The is survival at it's worst, where intuition, inner voice, and higher spiritual connectedness evaporates. I can tell when I am falling into the grip of survival consciousness because I am just aware enough now after years of grounding and meditating to be able to see what is happening to me. This is when I know it is time to take action. Like turning The Titanic, bit by bit I must steer my vessel away from the apparent looming danger dead ahead of me. There is zero ability to rationally think one's way out of this blind panic because once that sets in, I am virtually done for, a goner.
When I feel that paralyzing fear and panic seeping into my gut, the only way I know out of this trap is to start praying, affirming the wonderful gifts present in my life right now at this very moment, and reviewing all the amazing actions I have taken in the past, the fabulous things I am capable of creating and have created. It is like a soothing balm flowing over my soul as I review all I have to be grateful for, all the miraculous actions I have taken previously, the beautiful things I have created, the incredible people who fill my life at this very moment.
Slowly, I feel my heart rate coming down, and the fear lifting, the survival that has paralyzed my soul, my body, dissipates.... and then I reach for my higher power, my connectedness to the Universal Life Source that we all have access to and I remind myself I am safe. I have been here before so many times, and always there is a way forward. I can see a glimmer of hope as I continue to pray and affirm with gratitude all I have in my life right now.
It is precisely at this point where miracles happen, where doors open, where new insights are available, previously invisible paths become visible.
I was watching a TV show called Mysteries At The Museum the other day, and there was a story about a woman, Annie Edson Taylor, who when faced with the fear of providing for herself and her family came up with the insane idea of being the first woman to go over Niagara Falls in a barrel.
All calmness and rational thought drain away, leaving an empty shell of a human, panic-stricken, paralyzed with indecision and fear. This is what survival feels like and I know this feeling very well. As an entrepeneur I face fear and indecision often, but sometimes it is worse than other times. When a big bill comes due, the base instinct of survival sets in as panic floods my bloodstream. How am I going to pay this? I feel helpless, pinned to the spot, unmoving.
The is survival at it's worst, where intuition, inner voice, and higher spiritual connectedness evaporates. I can tell when I am falling into the grip of survival consciousness because I am just aware enough now after years of grounding and meditating to be able to see what is happening to me. This is when I know it is time to take action. Like turning The Titanic, bit by bit I must steer my vessel away from the apparent looming danger dead ahead of me. There is zero ability to rationally think one's way out of this blind panic because once that sets in, I am virtually done for, a goner.
When I feel that paralyzing fear and panic seeping into my gut, the only way I know out of this trap is to start praying, affirming the wonderful gifts present in my life right now at this very moment, and reviewing all the amazing actions I have taken in the past, the fabulous things I am capable of creating and have created. It is like a soothing balm flowing over my soul as I review all I have to be grateful for, all the miraculous actions I have taken previously, the beautiful things I have created, the incredible people who fill my life at this very moment.
Slowly, I feel my heart rate coming down, and the fear lifting, the survival that has paralyzed my soul, my body, dissipates.... and then I reach for my higher power, my connectedness to the Universal Life Source that we all have access to and I remind myself I am safe. I have been here before so many times, and always there is a way forward. I can see a glimmer of hope as I continue to pray and affirm with gratitude all I have in my life right now.
It is precisely at this point where miracles happen, where doors open, where new insights are available, previously invisible paths become visible.
I was watching a TV show called Mysteries At The Museum the other day, and there was a story about a woman, Annie Edson Taylor, who when faced with the fear of providing for herself and her family came up with the insane idea of being the first woman to go over Niagara Falls in a barrel.
Annie Taylor posing next to her barrel photo courtesy of Wikipedia
Who thinks of something like that? But to her, in her state of panic and survival, that door opened in her mind and she took it. She could have lost her life in the process, but she didn't. Instead she survived and went on to become very famous and prosperous, selling souvenirs, and traveling the country making appearances and speaking engagements.
I am not saying I would do something that extreme, but it just goes to show you, when we are pushed into that state of fear and survival, it is not necessarily a bad thing. It can give us a place to take action from in unexpected ways, ways we never have tried if we hadn't been faced with that feeling of impending doom.
When we are desperate and praying for a miracle, this is precisely the moment our connection to God, a higher power, or Universal Life Source is the strongest. Even though you feel so alone, this is the time we are most connected. When these crazy out of the box solutions pop into our heads, that is when we most need to listen and pay attention, be willing to trust and take action.
It might not be as insane as going over the falls in a barrel, but it could be something equally as scary, like writing a blog post (ahem.... yes, this is meant for me), selling some treasured possession that has been sitting in a corner somewhere, signing up for a class, going to a trade show, or taking a healing bath when you least feel you have time for it.
What ever feels like such a huge step that you couldn't possibly do that, that is your next right action. That is what will loosen up the log-jam of fear, indecision, panic and survival. That action will open the door for more action, and trust and balance will once again be available to you.
I am not saying I would do something that extreme, but it just goes to show you, when we are pushed into that state of fear and survival, it is not necessarily a bad thing. It can give us a place to take action from in unexpected ways, ways we never have tried if we hadn't been faced with that feeling of impending doom.
When we are desperate and praying for a miracle, this is precisely the moment our connection to God, a higher power, or Universal Life Source is the strongest. Even though you feel so alone, this is the time we are most connected. When these crazy out of the box solutions pop into our heads, that is when we most need to listen and pay attention, be willing to trust and take action.
It might not be as insane as going over the falls in a barrel, but it could be something equally as scary, like writing a blog post (ahem.... yes, this is meant for me), selling some treasured possession that has been sitting in a corner somewhere, signing up for a class, going to a trade show, or taking a healing bath when you least feel you have time for it.
What ever feels like such a huge step that you couldn't possibly do that, that is your next right action. That is what will loosen up the log-jam of fear, indecision, panic and survival. That action will open the door for more action, and trust and balance will once again be available to you.
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